It’s been nearly five months and I still wake up distressed by horrible nightmares. It’s been nearly five months and I still can’t concentrate at work because thoughts start swelling around my mind. I know that my friend Andy has still had the occasional dream as many as 4 years after losing someone that was once really important to him. So I guess it’s not going to go away for me. You can replace your sources of happiness but the happy memories stay and the pain of someone you loved so much just not caring any more still hurts like hell. Now multiply that by three people. Ouch.